BUDGETING http://finance.yahoo.com/banking-budgeting/article/105396/Five-Signs-That-Youre-Living-Beyond-Your-Means?mod=banking-budgeting a coworker yesterday was eating plain white rice and an apple yesterday. I thought it was an interesting combination, maybe something her mother used to make for her, maybe it was something regional, maybe just something her husband liked and she learned to like it. I asked her about it and she said ‘it was what was in the ‘fridge’. So we got to talking about our cafeteria and spending money there….you know, things that probably would give you indigestion because money is usually a stressful convo to have. When I got back to my desk I decided to add up to figure out what I spend on cafeteria spending here at work. I cringe when I think about it but the least amount is $480 a year. AT LEAST. URGH. I’ve always thought I was pretty good at budgeting but this does not sound like a good budget plan

SADNESS ever since my divorce, my goal was to keep, strengthen, cater to the relationship that my boys have with my ex…at all cost. I didn’t not want them to grow up without knowing or having their father in their lives. A lot of people have (and still do) said that that was not my job, not my burden to bear. My feelings on that were always suck it because no one lives mine or my children lives. I know have to wonder if by doing so, I’ve fostered a dream, that my boys may have had deep down, that we would get back together. Okoye’s anger at his dad…the underlying issue is that he left us. Well it wasn’t underlying…he said it among a whole lot of other hateful things. Kerry took it (the verbal beating) and I fought the need to step in and make it all better. They haven’t talked to each other since then it makes me incredibly sad

ADDICTION my goodness…I cant get enough cantaloupe…which normally yes, its good but for a diabetic..not so good. Especially if I eat it alone which…since I’m scarfing whole cantaloupes at a time, there isn’t any room for anything else in my belly….seriously folks…I go to the store, horde all the cantaloupes, we are talking 3 and 4 at a time, and DARE anyone to come close while I’m looking for the perfect ones

FRUSTRATED why do I continue to watch Big Brother???? I get so mad because people act surprised when someone else ‘plays the game all the way’. What in the hell do you expect them to do??? Don’t get me wrong. In real life, if I was back stabbed…all hell would break lose but if I sign up for all hell to brake loose…ummm how can I get mad, be surprised or be hurt when it happens. Yet…here I complain…and I will continue to probably watch it

CUTENESS I was telling Shells about Ava Rae hugging Miyagi and she found this link for me. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,534358,00.html?test=latestnews It was the cutest thing!! Miyagi wanted to kiss Ava so bad so I let him get a couple kisses in. Ava just crooned to him ‘baby….baby…baby’ and Miyagi would just wiggle his little (big) butt at her but he wouldn’t go to her…finally I was going to put him up so I told him to come and I thought he was behind me but he had walked up to Ava and just stood there…a mass of wiggles….Ava crooned to him ‘baaaaaaaaaaaaby’ and reached up and wrapped her arm around him, giving him a hug. How did he react??? He licked up the side of her face leaving a huge gross trail of slobber…she in turn said sternly ‘baby!’ frowned and said ‘ ewwwwwwwwwwww!’ too cute

PAPER PAPER PAPER school supplies have come out and I always go overboard with paper supplies. I am such a paperfeine…I’ve always loved journals but I always love notepads, notebooks, tablets, list tablets…you name it. ‘What, my son….you say you need a $150 calculater algebra?! Rubbish…poppycock…you need PAPER! Yeah! And that lovely 70 page spiral notebook with pink, blue and green swirls on it…so perfect!!!’