DISGUSTED…even more so since I recalculated my expense’s at work and its more like $2000 I spend on lunch’s at work…urgh

CAVE-DWELLER’S MENTALITY…I feel it coming on. Getting ready for a funeral yesterday, got a call that my mothers cousin’s had passed from prostate cancer

NASTY…Patrice, once you get a nasty cantaloupe…it stops all cravings for it. Trust me

INTERESTING… I love sitting around listening to older ladies talk. I wanted so bad to walk around them, snapping pictures, but it was a funeral and I didn’t think it would be appropriate. After the funeral, at dinner, I found myself sitting with a bunch of ladies, all dressed in white, head to toe, even down to the gloves. What first started out as what I guess would be considered proper, they got to talking about how they used to go to the Elks ‘parties’ and how fun they were. One little feisty thing, so tiny tiny tiny, with her wet set pin curls and bright red lipstick, would throw her head back and let out a laugh…I tell you what, made me laugh just to hear and see it. Another lady sadly told me about a mother who had gotten shot at a bus stop. The sadness she felt even though she did not know them personally made ME feel sad. One lady, who was the primadonna of the group constantly asked ‘hows my teeth???’ and grin really wide so I could make sure she didn’t have lipstick on her teeth. They also talked about how it was when they were 20 and how ‘friends’ they knew went through hell with abusive relationships and how I ‘bet not ever let a man control my life’…I think I felt a kinship with them because they reminded me of my grandmother. I could have listened to them all day.

FUNNY…Jalil’s new show is Hell’s Kitchen…he did a gourmet meal of Ramen Noodles and hotdogs the other day.

Well, this is about all I can muster up for today. I do have pictures but ehhhh…not in the mood to upload them. I hate when I get in this mood so here’s to everyone out there to have safe, blessed, fun filled weekend!

BUDGETING http://finance.yahoo.com/banking-budgeting/article/105396/Five-Signs-That-Youre-Living-Beyond-Your-Means?mod=banking-budgeting a coworker yesterday was eating plain white rice and an apple yesterday. I thought it was an interesting combination, maybe something her mother used to make for her, maybe it was something regional, maybe just something her husband liked and she learned to like it. I asked her about it and she said ‘it was what was in the ‘fridge’. So we got to talking about our cafeteria and spending money there….you know, things that probably would give you indigestion because money is usually a stressful convo to have. When I got back to my desk I decided to add up to figure out what I spend on cafeteria spending here at work. I cringe when I think about it but the least amount is $480 a year. AT LEAST. URGH. I’ve always thought I was pretty good at budgeting but this does not sound like a good budget plan

SADNESS ever since my divorce, my goal was to keep, strengthen, cater to the relationship that my boys have with my ex…at all cost. I didn’t not want them to grow up without knowing or having their father in their lives. A lot of people have (and still do) said that that was not my job, not my burden to bear. My feelings on that were always suck it because no one lives mine or my children lives. I know have to wonder if by doing so, I’ve fostered a dream, that my boys may have had deep down, that we would get back together. Okoye’s anger at his dad…the underlying issue is that he left us. Well it wasn’t underlying…he said it among a whole lot of other hateful things. Kerry took it (the verbal beating) and I fought the need to step in and make it all better. They haven’t talked to each other since then it makes me incredibly sad

ADDICTION my goodness…I cant get enough cantaloupe…which normally yes, its good but for a diabetic..not so good. Especially if I eat it alone which…since I’m scarfing whole cantaloupes at a time, there isn’t any room for anything else in my belly….seriously folks…I go to the store, horde all the cantaloupes, we are talking 3 and 4 at a time, and DARE anyone to come close while I’m looking for the perfect ones

FRUSTRATED why do I continue to watch Big Brother???? I get so mad because people act surprised when someone else ‘plays the game all the way’. What in the hell do you expect them to do??? Don’t get me wrong. In real life, if I was back stabbed…all hell would break lose but if I sign up for all hell to brake loose…ummm how can I get mad, be surprised or be hurt when it happens. Yet…here I complain…and I will continue to probably watch it

CUTENESS I was telling Shells about Ava Rae hugging Miyagi and she found this link for me. http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,534358,00.html?test=latestnews It was the cutest thing!! Miyagi wanted to kiss Ava so bad so I let him get a couple kisses in. Ava just crooned to him ‘baby….baby…baby’ and Miyagi would just wiggle his little (big) butt at her but he wouldn’t go to her…finally I was going to put him up so I told him to come and I thought he was behind me but he had walked up to Ava and just stood there…a mass of wiggles….Ava crooned to him ‘baaaaaaaaaaaaby’ and reached up and wrapped her arm around him, giving him a hug. How did he react??? He licked up the side of her face leaving a huge gross trail of slobber…she in turn said sternly ‘baby!’ frowned and said ‘ ewwwwwwwwwwww!’ too cute

PAPER PAPER PAPER school supplies have come out and I always go overboard with paper supplies. I am such a paperfeine…I’ve always loved journals but I always love notepads, notebooks, tablets, list tablets…you name it. ‘What, my son….you say you need a $150 calculater algebra?! Rubbish…poppycock…you need PAPER! Yeah! And that lovely 70 page spiral notebook with pink, blue and green swirls on it…so perfect!!!’

Its Monday and its time for my pic heavy post. Taking pictures is part of my relaxation, easy, calm mode. My addiction of choice, if you will….I shouldn’t say that…addictions are no laughing matter except…I aint joking….

Went to a gospel concert on Sunday which was needed so VERY much. I have been getting that feeling of…things not being exactly right in my gut and eventually I knew realized this was what I had been missing. I grew up (like you’ve heard time and time again from others) in the church where we had to go almost every day for some reason or another. My grandfather was a deacon. He was also a Mason. My grandmother did everything else. You name it and Jackie (grandmother) was it. Choir. Secretary. Cook. Clean. So even if we weren’t there for actual church…we were there. But…I also grew up around a lot drinking, gambling, and ummm extramarital THINGS but I digress….

Anyway…I’ve been noticing that lost, gut ache feeling for awhile now so when I heard about the concert I jumped at the chance to go and take the boys. The boys are always open to something to do so it didn’t take too much pushing and they were ready to go. So for about a week we’ve been getting ready and in turn, my parents wanted to go and then my sisters decided to go. Now…with all that spirituality flowing among us… you KNOW what happened…Satan reared His ugly head.

In a nutshell, my parents got a flat tire, my sister needed a car, Kerry and Okoye got into a HUGE argument and the other sister had a relapse (addiction) but we still STILL made it. All of us. And it was…such a blessing….

I have odd things happen to me a lot. By people I know and by people I don’t know. Most times, since this happens a lot, I brush it off when it does happen but I just had the sweetest moment…

I was in the restroom with my supervisor and she asked how this weekend was. I told her but somehow we got to talking about one of my aunts who has been sick…very sick lately. I was not crying nor was my tone any different than a normal conversation but it is something that has been on my heart lately. There was another lady in the restroom but as she walked by me on her way out, she looked at me. Not just a glance but LOOKED at me. She had walked completely by me when she stopped and turned around. Once again, she stared and said ‘I am so sorry that you are going through this’. I thanked her, told her that was very very kind of her and on the outside…yeah….I was normal but inside it did ‘rattle’ me…

My supervisor stood there for a minute, slack jaw and all and I kept right on talking. Finally she said ‘you don’t know her, do you?’ I told her no and she just shook her head and chuckled.

Random acts of kindness and sweet caring are ALWAYS good. Pass them around…

You ever take a listen to the inner dialogue you have in your head???? Not necessarily things you say to your self but things that people would have you committed, be offended or steer clear if you actually SAID THEM OUTLOUD??? But then again…some things can give you a peek into The You that you might not even know is there…

You magnificent beast!! I’d do ya, girl…ummm okay…you’re a man…

Whathahell

Whatdafuq

Shut up, PLEASSSSSSSSE

Good Lord…you look sh8tty (to myself)

Lorddddddd….what I wouldn’t do without You….

That look is NOT cute…

Shut up and let me talk

GOOF BALL (to myself)

Gross…just urgggggh gross

Are you really this evil

Damn damn damn

I am SO blessed

You are a really good man

I love you

My life is NOT that bad

Whereinthahell is the white knight

Silence

Kissable lips


Whatdafuq

I am so dang sleepy

*AND THIS WAS ALL BEFORE 1PM*

Capital Dayz.....

Jalil does his MJ impression of Billie Jean with the concrete squares....


Ode to Charlie's Angels and Farrah Fawcett....

yeah...that's my son being silly....

i love the relationship my boys have....

My nephew, Quentin had a basball game on Monday....I was there to cheer him on and take pictures for my sister of HIM but I found myself drawn to afro puff pontytails and beaded braids.....


My brother's big head and the corner of his daughter Jermylah...Mylie is what I call her...she aint the friendliest child.....but she is so dang cute


and of course Ava Rae was there...and she loves to ham it up and talk to ANY body...N E bbbbbbbbbbbbody....

oh and there was some baseball at the baseball game.... this is Quentin

But while Quentin made a home run....the cutest thing happened between Mylie and Ava Rae!!! They hugged...oh and Quentin scored a run....yeah.. something like that...

LOOK at those eyelashes!!!!

oh...I did get a picture of the home run....yeah for Aunt Jakki paying attention....

Ava Rae says: does she know that I aint the star attraction here???? hmmmmmm

Just so you know I did cheer, clap and yell for my nephew who had an AWESOME game....

LOL…watching Jalil trying to do the moonwalk…both of the boys know about MJ but I don’t think they KNOW about MJ so of course, now, there are documentaries on every channel, I think they are pretty amazed about the performer that he was…but to see a lanky uncoordinated teenage boy grab his crotch, screech and TRY and do the moon walk…priceless....

basketball basketball basketball....didya here me.... BASKETBALL
Jalil @ the freethrow line which
is a shot he practices allllllllllllllllllll
freakin' day

Okoye's team has started praying before
and after their games.... although....I'm kinda peeved that the
coach doesnt take part (that's him off to the side in gray).......
Okoye is the shortest one in the front...post later
on the issues THAT is causing....


TUMMY SUMMERSAULTS…lately I don’t know what the deal is…no food is appetizing to me and when I eat it upsets my stomach…these are a couple reasons why I am considering a fast…why do I think this will do some good, you may ask, well that is where ummmm I guess my spirituality comes more into play. I grew up with the ‘fast’ as a way of cleansing the soul so to speak. I grew up with a fast here and there but not…all the time. There was not a predetermined time or schedule it was just ‘we gonna fast for so and so’…. But I have always felt that if my spirit wasn’t right then it would come out physically. Well in my saying to a couple people that I wanted to do this…I’ve been getting lots of ‘cleanse’ treatments regimes, you know, like detox diets and stuff. I do appreciate it but I just want to do the plain ol not eating but I know my diabetes is not going to let me do that so I’m looking into other options.....


baseball baseball and a lil more....baseball. My nephew
plays so we always support the home slices......


nobody...just a reeeeeeeeeeeeealllly cool shot....LOL

my glady's ( gladiole's) always droop....hopefully next year I will get enough
or have something in front of them so that they be

supported better.

My parents are building onto a deck and wrapping it around to the back of their house....the first was taken about 3 months ago...the other is taken about 3 weeks ago...not bad for two retired 60 year olds.....they do a child proud....they grow up so fast, dont they???