July 4, A few years back....that's two
of my nephews, Teron and Quinten and my oldest son Okoye with the
shirt on his shoulders........

*Had a lil bit of a health scare dealing with my mom. She had received test results that were inconclusive/negative and since her bad test results COULD have been the result of procedures done inadequately…we prayed and refused to claim anything but human negligence. She has been cleared but it has me wondering about when my parents get older and the care that will be needed. We are not ones for nursing homes or living in assisted living environments but I know they both would be a handful. I hate to think about these things. As children we think our parents are invincible and they will always be okay and healthy . be there for US until the day WE die but the older we get the more….that fantasy fades away. Reality sets in. I am the executor of my parents wills and they have it set up for things to be ‘divvied’ up amongst my brother and my sisters but this brings a whole new issue up about the care of THEM.

*through out the course of a day I read about …..ummmmmmmmm 50-60 blogs a day on the regular. On days that I go to my fav’s, if it hasn’t been updated I will go through the blog roll or the Blogs I Read listing and check out a couple new ones just to see if anything catches my fancy. I ran across a blog post somewhere yesterday that has been in my head and it wont leave, LOL….awwwwwww now it hit me who’s blog it was… Sorry folks…that was in mid thought there… It was Karen's blog and it was this post right here. I think this is powerful and I have been thinking about FREQUENTLY. This thought process has been in my head for awhile. A couple weeks ago I got this urge…NEED to write down things I wished for…dreams and wants. Within like…24 hours I got this sweet heaven sent package in the mail that lead me to truly believe that my soul is needing a lil somethin’ somethin’ and that I need to pay attention to it. Last weekend…my weekend was almost surreal not because anything happened SPECTACULAR but because I felt more aware than I’ve ever felt in a long time and then…I read this post from Karen…

I hear ya….I hear ya…

*I hate paying bills…I just felt like saying that

*there is evil in the world. I know and you know it but do you know what evil has manifested itself into….SWIMSUITS! IF I GET ONE MORE CLOTHING STORE NEWSLETTER ANNOUNCING THE HOTTEST LOOK IN SWIMWEAR THIS SEASON… I’m going to scream. We tend to swim and go to water parks a lot during the summer but I still dread The Swimsuit problem up until the first time we go swimming. Once we start going to the pool I get over it but before then I get knots in my belly just thinking about it. I know I’m grown and after reaching adulthood I am supposed to realize I am more than my body and my size blah blah blah…call me vain…call me immature…but I haven’t reached that level of adulthood, yet….

*don’t forget….

!LIVE!