Thanksgiving has come and gone and I so hope that everyone was blessed with family, friends, love and laughter. Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday. I'm sure when I was younger, Christmas was ranked pretty high but anytime a kid gets a ton of presents ON ONE DAY...it is bound to be a favorite. But I can always remember looking forward for Thanksgiving.

Our home was always The Spot. The Spot where everyone went to unwind and get away from the city. Holiday dinners were always jam packed because everyone would come the night before, stay up all night cooking so that we could eat at least twice the next day. The night before our little kitchen was always filled with someone making cornbread for the dressing, someone making sweet pototoe pies, someone cleaning 'chittlins'...everyone had a job to do. Our job as kids was to go in and either beg or sneak a bite of something. Thanksgiving Day more family and neighbors would come all bringing more food. It was always fun. There was always laughter. And it was always....so damn good.

This Thanksgiving, I wanted that feeling of....completeness that I felt back then. I wanted to feel that 'home' vibe. I NEEDED it. And I had that...at first.

This past Thanksgiving...things happened that hurt my family in the worst way. Intentionally and un intentional. I struggle with wanting to dive head first into my 'cave dwellers' mode but I will not allow myself to do it. By cave dweller I mean that I want to shut the world out. I find myself just wanting to be alone. Most who know me know that this is the worst of the worst of me. But I am not going down that road. Well, I'm struggling to not go that route...

I believe that everything that happens, happens for a reason. Good or bad. Big or small. There is a reason. Sometimes the reason is shown from the beginning....sometimes it takes years but eventually we get that aha! moment and realize that it WAS for a reason. I think my recent chose of certain blog's is no accident. No coincidence. If it werent for realizing my important simple things or finding the beauty in life or just trying to find my peace...I do believe that I would have went into hibernation and retreated the Friday after Thanksgiving.

This is a learning process...life is a learning process. Any one who says they have learned pretty much all there is to learn, does not know ANYTHING.

And so I turn to what I hope speaks louder than my words and go back to posting mainly photo's...